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No doubt cycling was fun. But right now, my legs and butt fucking hurts. Is this normal? seriously? I don't know how I am going to survive the day tomorrow. I might have developed a fever as well, sigh. I just hope the aching lessens. And oh, thank god we didn't go pulau ubin, i don't think I could take it there haha

Actually, what I am feeling right now is... angry? or is it frustrated? annoyed? I really don't know. It's a mixture of emotions and I'm experiencing this because of various reasons... Maybe I couldn't take it? Or maybe I couldn't take the truth nor taking in the new information? Slowly, everyone's telling me things - and sometimes, I really don't know how to react to it you know. Not only that, I am kind of frustrated with someone right now. Too blunt. I totally respect that you're not someone who's fake with their feelings, but you also have to understand that some people just CANNOT take it in - everyone has their limits k.

It's not helping that I have a very low self-esteem. Great. I just hope someday I don't blow up. Kind of having problems controlling my anger now.

Anyway, its hard to trust people these days. I really don't know who to trust. That one person I trust the most, talks about me behind my back. So what am I going to do now? Happens everytime, but I still can't get used to it.