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It's finally over! Yes, Arts Platter is finally over.

I can finally have some time for myself, studies - basically my life, well at least for a little while. No drama till chalet, but I'm really looking forward for chalet k! Chalets are fun. Eating BBQ food are nice. mmhm. And the interactions. Maybe I can get to know more about the juniors through the chalet? hmm. I know I've been quiet, but right now I am actually warming up to Shahirah and Linda. It's good. I like the feeling.

"Drama" is not really over for this week though. Tomorrow I still have a d&p performance after school.Still memorising the lines, thank god its not much! Kind of irritating though, but I'll just get it over and done with because it concerns my daily grade for that day and I don't wish to skip school any more. It'll be embarrassing though, if our performance is not that good *since there will be a couple of people/facis coming to watch urgh.

Truthfully, I've been very stressed out. I'm pretty sure of this because 1) my emotions are unstable 2) I'm having bad skin day when I'm not even going to have my period. oh 3) Tired. Lethargic. Lack of sleep. And when I'm stressed out, 4) I tend to cry. Nothing serious, just that crying helps to relieve some stress- since I'm letting something out.

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I can't help feeling like this. Is it normal? Is it okay for you to do that? Is it okay for ME to do that instead then? If its not okay for me to do that, then it's not okay for you to do that as well - logic right?

I think I am a possessive person from the start. But I know that I toned down a bit from my last relationship. I get jealous easily, but now I don't really show it that often. Yes, I know my negative traits very well especially in a relationship - that is why I've been trying to tone it down cause its no use being all possessive and jealous-y you know, be it with friends/boyfriend etc. I think people will just get tired of me for behaving this way. Right?

But sometimes, I just can't help it. Once in a while, I do have to let out everything.

Okay I'm done for tonight. I need to sleep soon. Need to be in school as early as 830am even though school starts at 9.15am. D&P oh D&P.