1AM thoughts.

I get obsessive over something easily. 
It's been 3 weeks now and I wonder why I am holding on for so long. 
It's hard to fall out of it, but it's so easy to fall in it.
I'm not sure if I've fall hard enough, but seeing that you're all I think about... I might be.
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Sometimes I get so scared. You know.. about the future. I wonder what I am going to do in the future. How's my job like? How about meeting new people? Who's my other half? Will I even get to meet my other half?  Maybe I will get married, maybe I won't. Will I get to travel around the world like how I hoped to when I was a teenager? I get scared but it amuses me at the same time. Things will happen, be it if its something you expected it to be or not.

... But I am still not ready. I wish time would stop for awhile. I do not want to graduate just yet. I want to enjoy being a teenager. I want to be free. I do not want to work my ass off.... yet. Truthfully, I don't think I've fully experience my life being a teenager.